It’s been awhile since I have done a fitness post, part of that is because I didn’t feel like I had any ‘right’ to talk about fitness when I have been struggling with it. I am not sure if it’s the Minnesota winter slump or what but I became upset and slightly depressed about my lack of progress at the gym and with weight loss. Then something changed, I realized if I was having these feelings others probably were too. So for those of you out there feeling like you are stuck in a rut or haven’t been seeing the progress you had hoped for, know that you are NOT alone!
My Fitness Journey
If you are unfamiliar with my fitness journey, it started a little over 2 years ago. In 2016 with a lot of work and effort I ended up going from 280lbs to 220lbs. My lowest weight was in early 2017 at 215lbs before my 1st cruise. After the cruise I started slowly gaining weight back. I ended up gaining 20lbs back and have not been able to shake them. So it has been about a year since I have seen the scale move more than a few pounds, I have been stuck between 232-235lbs.
When I first started my fitness journey I started doing 1 thing at a time and then each month either adding or improving something I was doing. I was working out consistently 4-5 days a week and barely eating out or snacking. But of course, life and change happens and I lost my routine. In the last few months I have been at the gym 2-3 times a week on average and when I have been going its primary been to use the treadmill or elliptical. Thinking about it, I know why I have been at a constant weight – I haven’t been challenging my body at all!
That all changed last week. I decided I needed a reboot to my system. Normally I work out after work at the FREE gym at work, it’s nothing huge but it has what I need. Last week though I decided to pay to join the Wellness center also at work which not only comes with more workout machines but working classes lead by instructors who will also create personalized workout plans for you. I joined the wellness center primarily for the workout classes. My boss does them daily and she loves them and has told me what a good workout it is. There is a variety of classes including yoga, strength training, interval trailing, tabata, and boot camp.
I joined the wellness center on Tuesday and hit the ground running. I did an evening strength training class on my break that night. I left not feeling THAT sweaty or sore so I was a little disappointed. However, after work I did an hour on the treadmill and the next day I was feeling a little sore which made me so excited! Going into the workout class on Wednesday I figured that it would be similar to Tuesday nights… I was wrong! This time there was a different instructor running the class and it was interval training. It was INTENSE! The class was not only physically hard but for me it was also mentally hard. It was obvious that I was the largest and most out of shape person in the class. I had a lot of thoughts about how I couldn’t do it, how I should just stop and thoughts about being a failure since I had to modify some of the moves the others in the class were easily able to do. Luckily I did NOT listen to my inner demons and instead powered through the class by telling myself 2 things – 1) if she believes she can, she will 2) I am doing better and more today than I was last month, I can do this! I am proud to say I made it through the class and though I woke up incredibly sore on Thursday morning I was happy. I got a lot of comfort at work Thursday when I found out my boss was also sore from the class on Wednesday!
YOU CAN DO IT!
Last week and this week have been hard, as I have been continually going to these workout classes and doing my own gym time on top of it. I am still sore from classes and mentally beat myself up for not being able to do some moves full out, but I keep going and I DO make it through the classes. I hope this gives comfort to others who are struggling as you are not alone but I hope that this also inspires you to keep going and to maybe do your own reboot if you’re stuck! Remember, you can and WILL do it if you put your mind to it!